My Chemo therapy went better than I expected.

[musher0]

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Report on chemo They need to change to stronger versions safdly will give me bad effects but mybe kill cancer faster than killing me I

Hi, nooby.
That's the spirit! Kill that cancer! This forum needs you! BFN
Chris

[greengeek]

win xp can get out on internet while I fail to get out using Puppy ... I don't understand how to get Puppy working while microsoft just worked so what one need are knowhow

Try plugging an ethernet cable into your PC and booting Slacko 5.6 or 5.7 without a savefile or else boot it via CD using pfix=ram.

Once that is confirmed working then it is possible to start hunting for the damaged files that may be in your previous savefile. (My guess is that the file /etc/resolv.conf may have been corrupted or missing).

Or are you stuck with wifi access only?

Good to see you back by the way - don't like it when you go quiet

[starhawk]

Good to see you back by the way - don't like it when you go quiet

I don't either be here and make sure we know!

[nooby]

wow I wrote a text while asleep so forget it

[nooby]

next chemo will be strongest up to now so scary will lose skin and
so on be knocked out for a week most likely keep thumbs
for the old man

Re getting out I use win XP lost 6 hours yesrsday so gave up on me
and Linux for this hospis tthing too tiring for the Back Neck ...

warm hugs to all of you none not mention not forgotten

[nooby]

Some kind of update? Guys, I trust that I "strain" your patient
with my "updates" .

I will now reluctantly be "switched" over to a new "regime"
which are much stronger Chemo that will

either 1. Will kill me due to my lack of general level of coping with such
strong Chemo.

2. or kill the Cancer or at least keep it in the background and me
being passed out sleeping most of the time between treatment episodes.

3. Have little to no effect to reckon with?

Future will tell so I try to keep guys informed.
Keep me in your friendly thoughts. I mean that

Christians may pray if they long for to be part of the drama
and the "secular" will tell me to "fight back"
Yeah but II seems to lack that "spirit".

The Christian Pastor will now take a well deserved time out
for the "summer vacations " So I will miss her friendly hugs.

Wow think of it. A nice lady in her best years only some 20 years
younger than me give me the aggressive atheist warm friendly hugs
each time that I visit her. irresistible to receive her very accepting hugs.

And the best part. She accept that I am atheist. No preaching from her at all.


Feel so privilege or "blessed" treaed this way.
She is good at being a stand in for or a mediator for "Jesus"

[nooby]

Guys ! either have to get Quality or meaning in life
the short time that I have left? Research suggest that
one should think positively.

Or a few year more with less meaning?

[starhawk]

Thinking positive is important. (I have a hard time with it, too!) Best advice I can give: believe in SOMETHING. Not necessarily religious. You can believe in beating the @#^&#$#@@#$%^&&***($#!!! out of that cancer just as fervently as anyone can believe in God.

But pick something to believe in, and cling to it. Cling to it like plastic wrap should cling HARD with both hands firmly in a white-knuckle grip (not quite literally), and do not let go for anything in the world at all.

I think that if you believe you can beat that cancer, and you choose that as your Thing To Believe In Fervently, that you WILL beat that cancer. Can I guarantee it? **** no. BUT: positive thought translates to positive actions -- and the willingness to go just "that much" further to try and reach your goal. And if you keep going "that much" further, sooner or later you'll reach it. It's just a matter of stretching far enough.

A quote I heard somewhere, that seems apt here -- "Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars."

Aim high, nooby.

[rokytnji]

And if Starhawks advise is unavailable, for what ever reason, like I had with my Mom bringing her back from the brink of death with sepsis.

She was just plain tired and had lost the will to fight.

I did what I do best.

I made her mad at me which gave her strength.

I hope you have some one who cares enough about you to make you furious at them.

[nooby]

Very good advices there happy both of you shared your experience.
I am very bad at "fighting" cancer. I rather avoid i or
I try to "escape" the whole thing by going into "Mental Block or Bubble"
than to take responsibility for my situation. Escape Artist.

I want to share something that I 've found interesting.

"The fake Guru" Vickram pretending to be Kumare Kumaré
but he where Guru Kumaré only to his disciples.
And almost all of them Did believe in his pretend spirituality.

Some got very angry at him and felt betrayed and let down.
I can understand that. Must have felt horible to be fooled that way.

But the connection to ffighting Cancer is that the faith
that they had in him did make life meaningful
despite being only existing in their mind

Hes say something interesting to me.

He believed that his "fake" helped him too and that the fake
had a real kernel? not his words. He truly believed
that his fake could help himself and others.

Some just accepted him and forgave him for being tnat deceptive.

So to fight my cancer even if I have no talent for fighting
I only need to act like deep down I do have it but hidden from
my awareness and control.

Fake it until you make it. Kind of approach.

What do you think re Guru Kumare and his faked spirituality?

I even got so enthusiastic I sang the Mantra together with them

Haha talking about being easily persuaded

Within a Month I hope to e able to volunteer as a volunteer
at the Cat rescue center. Would be cool I hope.

I have to learn the "independence" a cat usually show.
To not be this dependent on others judgement of me as a
bad atheist.

[greengeek]

Fake it until you make it. Kind of approach.
What do you think re Guru Kumare and his faked spirituality?

I guess "faking it" can bring happiness. In fact, people who get hung up on truth can sometimes become really miserable - maybe learning to 'fake it' is a good skill.

In a way this raises a question - can the placebo effect work if you know it is a fake result, based on nothing but good feelings? Maybe thats the real power of positive thinking - it doesn't matter if you truly believe it or not - just go with the flow and fill your mind with positivity whether it is justified or not, and just enjoy the moment knowing that the outcome will be beneficial regardless of what science or logic might suggest. Maybe truth is wasted? Maybe self deception is more powerful?

I know plenty of salesmen and customers who seem to live by that

[neerajkolte]

the faith
that they had in him did make life meaningful
despite being only existing in their mind

Hes say something interesting to me.

He believed that his "fake" helped him too and that the fake
had a real kernel? not his words. He truly believed
that his fake could help himself and others.

My grandma once when I was a child told me a story about Faith and Power of mind.
It goes as,
Once there was a really rich person who had every thing but no peace of mind.
He was always sick for some reason or other.
He went to a famous doctor. The doc did all the tests but couldn't find any cause of his constant sickness.
But the doc was smart he knew it was all in his mind.
So he told his " there is only one solution, but it's costly"
Rich man said "You don't worry about money but give me the remedy"
The doc just made some pills with sugar and gave him at high price.
Rich man had Faith in his money. He thought so costly medicine is bound to be effective. He took them regularly and every morning when he saw in the mirror he thought " I look good, the medicine is working"
He was cured in a month.
His mind started believing he is going to be cured and his body started self curing.

That's why Always Keep positive approach towards life and death too. (They are not that different, just two sides of a coin)

I also asked what if I came in situation when I couldn't see any thing positive.
She said "Look towards others, you will surely find many who are in worst condition than you, That is a positive thing for you."

everybody dies eventually,
It's not about how are you going to die.
But how you are going to live.

Hope this helps I am bad at giving advices.

Thanks
-Neeraj

[nooby]

Thanks guys,
I know too little. But I agree that it could be helpful to be positive in a not too unrealistic way.

I've been too negative all my life. Maybe time to try something different.

Okay back to the research.

There is/was a report on Placebo working even if the research leaders
told the test person the person getting a fake treatment.
It gave a very "mixed" answer to me if I get it what they write at all.

Some persons seems to be able to "fake it until you make it even if told the "fake" really is a fake.

I read about it here.
Science Daily short notices and try to find it.

Try this? Placebo work even if being told it is placebo?

Just a lot of links I trust that if you get interested reading about them
then you do look up on some of them As you can see the result is
kind of hard to make good sense of?????:)

How is it suppose to even work.
A kind of self deception at play. Self persuasion? okay some of the links
based on this hasty question and google suggests these.

Q: Placebo work even if being told it is placebo?

A: Placebos work -- even without deception.

http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/20 ... 173033.htm

(I am too tired by the Cancer to go deep into the texts. )

next
http://www.theguardian.com/science/2010 ... -sham-drug

http://www.scientificamerican.com/podca ... -10-12-23/

http://www.sciencebasedmedicine.org/ted ... cts-again/

This text maybe important to look deeper into.
A kind of suggested explanation about what really is going on???
Nooby made wrote this here. not in the link.
short comment.

There are many more to look into I am sure

So how is it supposed to work.

My a longer comment. Only read if you have great patience with a wordy Nooby.
TL;DR something.

Take me persuading myself that I could become almost anything
that I wanted to be. I just had to put my mind dedication and
hard work at it and sooner or later. That fact should work they told me.

That was what many Socialist and Communists told me here in Sweden.
Sweden where "ruled" by the Political Left for a long long time.

We are still most likely the most Political Correct country there is.

My Dad a good example of positive thinking about himself.

A kind of self denial? One trust so much in this "mantra"
that one fail to see reality. that Inner constrain and limitations
put a stop to such "wishful thinking.

Dad was so wrong that I feel embarrassed that I did trust him
and the other Communists having these "dreams"

Okay let us take turns at this "mantra"

Anybody can become anything just by putting their mind
and dedication to it. Being a Teacher. Singer! Playing
music instruments. Dancing, Handy work buildingyour own "vACATION cabin?

Repairing an old Volvo 245 Building shortwave receivers
and transmitters. and the list goes on and on.

[Sky Aisling]

Hi Nooby,

Hummmm? Maybe instead of 'fighting' the cancer, you can use the Aikido way of stepping aside and letting the cancer fall of it's own accord.

Just a thought. But, I'm not sick like you are so I can easily say these things.

You are doing well to continue to question.

So many good people on this forum are rooting for you, Noobs.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aikido

[nooby]

Yes I can see the merit in such attitude.
A kind of acceptance of what one fail to conquer
will cost too much effort so why not let the strong forces
do their thing and not get caught up
in fruitless war against too complicated and overvelming tasks.

I've failed so many times before so I have to learn
what little comes out of such experiment.

Haha spent some 6 hours to get out on the internet and then
I realize that the most easy way is to let Ms Win 8.1
plow itself out and then boot up Puppy and
That allow me to get out only to get a slap in the face.
I've forgotten the PSW for to log in to Fastmail
But the internet did work. So I learn the hard way.

No effort needed at all. Win 8 doing that job for me.

[nooby]

Some 10 days from now I will know and you guys too
if I died or if my body could stand the Chemo poison
trying to ill both Cancer and old Nooby

Today when I went shopping then I needed
too friendly souls that lifted me up. So I only have
some 8 days to train/exercise the arm and legs
so that I can stand up on my accord.

Too short time so hopefully the Taxi driver
will raise me up without charging double price.

So keep thumbs and friendly thoughts that all goes well.

Just in case the worst will happen I get a visit by? Sister
to say a good bye she lives some 4 hours or more travel
from me B/C it is rather expensive to pay for the Gasoline.

So we does not visit each other so often.

[nooby]

Title to the thread is misleading.

" My Chemo therapy went better than I expected."

Well yes and a big No!

I did not know that I would totally lost appetite
and get a severe anorexia that still have me
in a hard grip. I still dink too little water and eat
much less food for my own good so that is why
I asked if my Sister could visit me already now
just in case I get so bad that I pass out.

The yes is about my wild imagination taking out
the bad things and I do have a wild fantasy.

[slavvo67]

Nooby,

I wish you well. Can I suggest that you drink "Carnation Instant Breakfast Drink," which is like a milkshake with many vitamins. It's like those other bottled vitamin shakes but lower cost (at least here in the States). Maybe the milk will put some weight back on you, too.

Hang in there and keep fighting! You inspire us all!

Warmest wishes,

Slavvo67

[Puppus Dogfellow]

slavvo's right about carnation instant breakfast drink. it goes down really easily and tastes good. good luck nooby and hang in there.

[Tote]

Best wishes to you, Nooby!